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Health & Support Either its binging or restricting.. either thin or fat.. either excersice or nothing at all! why do I think like this?? Jul 23 2011
12:45 (UTC)

And if you are not keeping a separate food journal where you log the date/time, your hunger level, thoughts and feeling & emotions &circumstance you were in before you felt like eating, after eating- How much you ate, hunger level, emotions- please start to now! Keep this separate from your calorie log! This can provide useful insights, definitely really try to do the before eating part- especially the thoughts &emotions part, really try to figure out what was going on with your mentally/emotionally. Don't even bother doing it if you have already eaten and forgot to log before getting/eating the food.

Health & Support Either its binging or restricting.. either thin or fat.. either excersice or nothing at all! why do I think like this?? Jul 23 2011
12:32 (UTC)

I'm glad you have that book, I do too. I found it worth reading, but still it did not provide a step by step method of recovery. She discusses her experience in overcoming her eating disorder mindset, but she does not explain how she RECONNECTED with her intuitive eating self. The same with Geneen Roth's books, which is why I think normal eating is so good. I'm not trying to shill this book, I just think its the best book to help someone become an intuitive eater!

basically over time you 'relearn' how to eat for hunger, and stop when full. There is no eating plans or calorie levels necessary when you are intuitive eater. If you are underweight, and become a intuitive eater, chances are you will naturally get to your set weight over time (the weight your body naturally wants to be at). If you are not deathly thin, I don't see the urgency in eating 2500 calories a day and adhering to that 'rule' if there is another method to actually cure eating issues. Contuining to obsess over calories in/out, binging, weight is the norm when first coming out of an ED, but you do NOT want to continue down this path, because the binging can get worse and it CAN stick around for a long time- you do not want to live with the urge to binge for years like I did!!!

Like I said, the key to overcoming an ED is losing the obsession with calories & weight, and it is hard to do that if you feel like your eating is out of control. Its not easy to lose the obsession at all, it takes time of consciously letting go of the various 'if I was thin' fantasies, you have to force yourself to stop thinking about your weight/calories. If you keep the obsession, and try to force yourself to stick to a 2500 calorie plan, or any plan, THERE IS ALWAYS THE RISK of relapse, or binging, or some other disordered eating behavior because you are not fixing the underlying problem. Becoming a normal weight and eating an adequate amount of calories did not cure my ED, I had to do a lot of work to fix relationship with food. Binging did not go away until I stopped thinking about calories, and especially until I accepted myself a little heavier then i'd like, which contrary to popular belief is not the end of the world.

Also- I do not see an ED as an illness (my opinion of course, i don't mean to rile people up). I know it is often labeled as that, and treated as that. The side effects of EDs might lead to illness, but an ED itself is a 'Mind' problem- I see it as a series of thinking/belief issues- including self esteem problems. If you dissect a person's thoughts who has an ED, chances are they have some pretty WARPED beliefs that are fueling their behavior. I learned about beliefs/thinking from byron katies books and that has also changed my life. I actually cured myself of 80% of my depressive tendencies by dealing with my toxic belief system- I recommend working on your beliefs about weight/your body as well- this is also crucial in recovery. For me personally, that book helped- there are lots of other books about beliefs and how to change them. What I did was I thought about my obsession about weight/my body/my eating disorder/food, I wrote every belief I had down- e.g. 'I have to lose weight or I will not be happy (this is a vague general one just to give an idea), and then I did the 4 step process from byron katies book to figure out if this belief was true or made sense. Its hard to explain, but it works in action! I am so much happier as a result of doing these exercises! With no drugs! And I was severely depressed for years, which made my ED worse of course.


Weight Loss I regret going to such extremes... Jul 20 2011
11:11 (UTC)

Please don't eat past your fullness, listen to your body! Thats just asking for another eating issue. You are lucky you have this intuitive connection with hunger/fullness, a lot of people with eating issues don't! Your body will gain weight eventually until your normal weight if you stop controlling your calories and eat for hunger/fullness.

Eat energy dense foods if you want to increase your calorie intake- try healthy fats. Contrary to popular belief fat is good for you! Don't go overloading on protein, the notion that tons of protein is healthy is a bunch of hogwash. If you're avoiding fat, please eat more! A Good way to consume some extra calories without over filling your stomach is a tablespoon of coconut oil 3x per day- you will  feel more energetic and i'm sure it will improve your health in other ways. Research the benefits of coconut oil if you're skeptical.

Health & Support Either its binging or restricting.. either thin or fat.. either excersice or nothing at all! why do I think like this?? Jul 19 2011
19:39 (UTC)

In 5 years, if you're still struggling with eating disorder thoughts/obsessions, please consider my advice.

Health & Support Either its binging or restricting.. either thin or fat.. either excersice or nothing at all! why do I think like this?? Jul 19 2011
11:07 (UTC)

Ok, first of all, binging/feeling out of control around food is normal when recovering from an eating disorder. Don't feel hopeless or like you can't recover, because lots of people do, lots of people have the same issues your struggling with and get better.

Sticking to a food plan when you are in this stage of recovery is almost impossible, and your therapist obviously has a limited understanding of how the binge/diet cycle works. She is trying to keep your calorie level in a healthy range- which in his/her mind treatment, but its not doing anything to fix the underlying problems.

I would recommend getting and reading 2 books- breaking free from emotional eating- geneen roth, and normal eating by Sheryl cantor. The latter being the far more practical book which offers a real 4 step process to overcome an eating disorder, and combat all-or nothing thinking. I think you can get to the point where you don't count calories and eating for hunger/stop when full. It takes a while to get there though. Obsessions with weight will be the number 1 enemy of recovery.

I had the same issues as you, and both these books worked miracles for me. 

Coming on here and venting is good too, but I'm 100% sure those books will help more. I struggled with binging for years, believe me you will have incredibly hard times maintaining your weight if you don't deal with this problem, it will only get worse and you will only feel more frustration. When I got these books and actually followed the plans, I got better pretty quickly. If you get the books, and continue to obsess about calories and weight, you will not get any better. Please don't waste anymore of your life spending all your time obsessing about calories and your metabolism etc.

Binging has NO PHYSICAL ROOTS. Binging is psychological. HUNGER IS PHYSICAL. If you eat so damn much food that your stomach is stuffed and you feel like you couldn't/can't stop yourself, this is binging, its not physical, don't rationalize it as so. Binging is a psychological/emotional response to an eating disorder. It is not caused by your metabolism. Your obsession with your weight is going to be your #1 barrier to recovery, I suggest working on that more. 

Weight Loss I can't restart my diet. Jul 14 2011
11:23 (UTC)

Sounds to me like you when on an extreme restricted/low calorie diet to lose the excess weight, and when you went home it was unsustainable. NOT because you didn't have 'structure' or 'discipline', most people fail diets, and the one you were on sounds awful.

So you went home this summer, and in the matter of 3-4 months you gain 30 pounds back? So thats about 8-10 pounds a month, which means you were overeating considerably, plus your metabolism/body was probably converting calories to fat more efficiently due to being in starvation mode. I'm guessing here because you didn't give any specifics about your eating habits- I'm not judging or anything. it sounds like to me you have a problem typical to chronic 'dieters'- once you have dieted and experienced the deprivation, eventually you 'blew it', probably by eating more then you needed to often. And now, you find not only it difficult to re-deprive yourself by sticking to a diet and controlling your food intake strictly, but you find it very hard to control yourself or not overeat when you have meals/snack.

Sticking to a calorie controlled method can work, but if you are at the point where you have to constantly monitor your intake to make sure you don't overeat and gain weight is a sign of food 'issues'. If you have the compulsion to snack when you're not hungry or eat more at meals/non meals then what physically makes you full (or if you ignore or do not eat to satisfy hunger cues), chances are you're going to struggle long term with your weight unless you heal your relationship with food/eating. Trying to follow a regimen plan may work, but require a lot of 'discipline' and 'self control' that a person with non-food issues wouldn't usually struggle with. A person with food issues might find it incredibly hard to stick to even a reasonably lenient calorie control/food plan.

My advice is to trying whatever other suggestions seem good to you, but ALSO try to figure out whats leading to your overeating/eating in a way thats causing weight gain (I have friends who go to parties drink beer/alcohol eat chips and junk but are not struggling with their weight because they don't overeat naturally, because they are intune with their bodies/hunger cues. You can be like this too).

Also, it might  be wise to lose the obsession with losing weight (Idk if this is an issue in your case, but if so relax and try to keep the weight loss thoughts to a minimum). To work on your food issues- I suggest keeping a eating log- NOT TO MONITOR CALORIES, you can, but this is not the point. Everytime you feel like eating, get your log BEFORE YOU EAT, and write how hungry you are (make up your own hunger scale or whatever), write what you were thinking about/doing/feeling before you felt like eating. Then write how much you ate and how hungry you were after you ate, write how you feel/what you are thinking/if you still crave food. Keeping a log like this will be very enlightening! Its not about controlling your food intake, its about discovering patterns of non-hunger eating. Its important to do it even when you are hungry when you feel like eating.


Foods non dairy sources of calcium Jul 01 2011
14:36 (UTC)

I agree with the other poster about the overemphasis on calcium in health. Calcium is an important nutrient, yes, but the dairy industry/vitamin industry has basically waged a campaign to convince the average consumer that if they don't drink milk/take supplements they will suffer serious calcium deficiency issues. chive/2010/12/21/osteoporosis-prevention-and- treatments-exposed.aspx

Thats a good article about calcium- unfortunately archived articles from Mercola's website have a pop-up feature that take up the screen and asks you to register, just press the 'stop' button before the page fully loads- but after the text has appeared.

I would not consume soymilk if I were you. IF its not organic, its heavily sprayed with chemicals and GMO, the worst of all. All conventional soybeans are GMO- genetically modified. If you think these foods are safe- do some research... Plus, soy is no longer being promoted as a health food in general- except maybe by vegans/vegetarians with their head in the sand and the soy industry (yes, their is a huge industry with a lobby and they pay tons of money to advertise their product and produce bias studies etc its not a conspiracy theory. Similar to the latest millions of dollars campaign by the corn industry- you know the 'corn sugar' commercials that try to convince people high fructose corn syrup is the SAME as sugar). Do some research on soy, in a few years, I know the 'healthy' benefits of soy consumption that so many companies- corporate 'health' magazines have been promoting for the last decade will be exposed as a fraud. logy/The-Dark-Side-of-Soy.aspx

You can find MANY articles that list why soy is unhealthy. Do not fall prey to the soy industry advertising campaigns.


Health & Support Desperately need some hope May 17 2011
02:16 (UTC)

I wish I could say something to help. I'm sure others will. I'm sure you've heard comforting words in the past, so i'm gonna offer something practical.

I'm going to recommend something seemingly random- something that helped me get out of the horrible eating disorder thought cycles was Byron Katie's books. Basically it taught me how to question the bullsh*t thoughts and beliefs that were floating through my head that I would previously simply accept and believe without question. the process is called the 4 questions. I mean the questions might seem confusing at first- but you really discover a lot of stuff by simply writing down any number of thoughts you can think of and applying the 4 questions. eg of thoughts are 'i'm too fat', 'I cannot overcome my eating disorder', 'I will never be happy', etc etc etc.

I remember I did the 4 questions on the beliefs that would run through my head a lot- such as 'I am too fat', 'I need to be thinner', 'I cannot be happy unless i'm thinner', etc. It really helped release a lot of the misery I was feeling while believing these thoughts.

Please check this book from the library out and give the process a try- its not even fruity or weird or anything. Its kind of like really effective CBT without the necessity of the therapist. If you want to get rid of your eating disorder, you've got to fight the bullsh*t eating disorder thoughts that have taken over. I went to therapy for years and this was more effective. Its something to try! Its not like reading some stupid book explaining why you feel this way and give crappy advice how to make yourself feel better- it actually helps you see through how your thoughts are making you miserable! Its worth a look!

Health & Support ~~Bingers Anonymous~~ May 11 2011
17:01 (UTC)

antibinge- no need to apologize, i didn't mean to suggest anything.

I came upon this article on huffingtonpost and thought of you- Binging/emotional eating tend to be linked. I thought it had some useful stuff in it. tional-eating_b_855779.html

Especially the mindful eating part!!! I can't emphasize this enough- if you find yourself getting ready to binge/binging- SLOW DOWN. Im not saying try to stop yourself, but simply take a minute, think about what you want to eat, take it out, SIT AT A TABLE OR AT LEAST IN A CHAIR! Eat slowly, do not cram food down your throat. Pay attention to what your eating, try to enjoy it. Believe me, this will impact your binges a lot. Dont do the frantic eating crap in front of an open fridge or cabinet. Focus on eating, focus on what you are eating, do not let your mind wander or think about other things. Relax, try to enjoy the binge at least, you know? Its the least you can do to make it positive in some way (im not saying a binge is a good thing, but you might as well enjoy as best you can). Stop letting the frantic "oh crap im binging again" feeling come over you, just relax. Changing how you 'binge' will change a lot IMHO. Its a lot harder to binge to the severity you describe if you eat in a mindful manner.



Health & Support ~~Bingers Anonymous~~ May 11 2011
12:32 (UTC)

Hi antibinge, I haven't been on here in a whole but I was emailed that you responded to my post. I'm sorry you are struggling right now.

"The strange thing is, if I have a low intake, I am less likely to binge. If I have a higher intake, I am more likely to binge."

I'm not sure why this is the case- you say it has to do with the feeling of fullness. When I was struggling- I would be more prone to binge if I felt I had ate TOO much during the day, or too much of something etc, like I would have this whole mental chain reaction of disappointment/frustration/negative emotions in my head and just binge. The feeling of fullness, that physical sensation for me never really impacted my decision to eat or not or my desire to binge- I had no connection to my physical need for food it was all mental/emotional. So i'm wondering if there is more to it then that? I truly believe binging is not a physical thing for most of us. Keep track of your thoughts/emotions.

"Allow myself to eat what I want when I want it - The stopping when full thing is definetely hard."

This is hard even after I stopped binging. Its one of the HARDEST things to do coming out of an eating disorder. I still don't always stop when full. I think this is a long term goal- like maybe in a couple years you'll get there after recovering from binging (as in never having the desire to binge, not being able to 'stop' yourself). I think what happens first is you stop having the desire to eat whenever, and your more in-tune with your hunger first. Like initially I used to SNACK all the time and eat for non hunger reasons- this was like phase 1.5 for me coming out of binging. Now, i don't snack nearly as much, and when I'm not hungry hungry I dont feel like eating- most of the time. When  I have pms or my favorite food is in front of me, I might want a bit, but its not an overpowering need to eat. You'll get there too in time. Sometimes I feel like snacking more then usual, i dont panic or feel ****. I basically say who cares and move on.

"Unfortunately, that means when I have anything junk-y (or what I consider 'bad' I guess) I can't stop when full. How did you manage to eat your 'trigger foods' but not in huge quantities? Whenever I tell myself I can eat whatever I want I end up in a binge."

This is a tough one. First of all, junk food is pretty addictive- in the sense that junk foods usually contain lots of sugar additives and flavor enhancers, so they can induce the desire to consume more of them. I think its important to not restrict yourself because you afraid to eat junk food. Idk, im pretty sure in the beginning I didn't only eat 1 cookie or take one bite of ice cream. I might have had a couple cookies or a large bowl of ice cream with hot fudge, but I didn't eat 7000 more calories after. I might have been full on a big dinner when I had that ice cream too, but i didn't binge. It was a gradual process to eating less of the junky stuff. I do find NOW that junk food often has me eating more of it when I do snack on it, so I don't eat much of it except once in a while, and I don't really crave it very often. Junk food is tricky. It takes time! Don't expect yourself to eat small portions or what you think a portion size will be overnight.

If you wake up post binge and are full as hell, just wait until you are comfortable. Wait until you feel your stomach can handle food. Dont wait because you are disgusted or dont think you should eat because you binged- wait until you are physically feeling better!



Health & Support Hashimoto's hereditary? Mar 16 2011
18:30 (UTC)

I would cut it out anyway. I remember I attended a lecture and this doctor- Nora Gedgaudas, who had a family history of Hashimotos- she said her sisters and her mother had it. She religiously doesn't eat gluten, and avoid grains and carbs and she never developed hashimotos. She said she attributes her avoiding the condition to avoiding gluten.

Just because you don't notice serious symptoms doesn't mean the gluten isn't doing serious damage to your body.

Health & Support Losing hope with Hypothyroidism - Esp. for those who have Hypoth. Mar 16 2011
17:34 (UTC)

you're welcome! There is a lot of good info out there about thyroid disease that often us thyroid sufferers will never hear from our doctors. To be honest, the average thyroid doctor is rather useless. I've had to go as far as 5 hours from where I live to find a decent doctor (between that and the expense I can't go much sadly).

Health & Support Losing hope with Hypothyroidism - Esp. for those who have Hypoth. Mar 16 2011
17:21 (UTC)

Do you have a copy of your most recent levels with ranges? Perhaps you're not in the optimal range. Doctors can be idiots when it comes to thyroid disease. Heres a website that has some good info- although its rather radical in the sense that the folks who wrote it/run it seem to be super angry at being mistreated.

I have thyroid disease as well- Hashimotos- Im still relatively young though but im tired all the time etc. I haven't been to a doctor in a while because of lack of funds (here it costs around 1200$ if you're uninsured for 1-2 visits plus labs, thats only a month worth of treatment....). meds-dont-work/ its-useless/

As far as weight goes, I understand that thyroid disease can lower the metabolism, but I really don't think extreme low calorie eating will help in this situation. I think a better approach would be to really alter what you're eating- as in less to no carbs, no grains or gluten grains, no sugar, no fruit, etc. I imagine you probably eat a very low fat diet to keep the calories low- please up your intake of healthy fats. Coconut oil can be good for those with thyroid issues, check into that.

Check out Gary Taubes book 'why we get fat' (he is controversial but I found his book to be very informative, he offers a different approach to weight loss then low calorie). 

Honestly, I know what you mean when it comes to looking at a dish and the first thing popping into your head is the calorie content that used to be me, I was afraid of any food I didn't cook myself... that sucks and is no way to live. When it comes to thyroid disease, diet is very important, and more then just weight loss. When I am eating junk (sometimes I give into my sugar cravings or whatever for a couple weeks and my diet goes downhill for a bit) I literally feel 100% worse, tired fatigued heavy headed foggy etc etc etc. I went on a no grain no sugar diet to test it out (I don't count calories anymore, I don't find that low calorie really does much for me, its what I'm eating that makes all the difference), I felt sooo much better then I had in a long time. I went off for a few days because it was my boyfriends birthday and I feel like crap again (ate cheesecake, sugary stuff I had been avoiding, gluten... ack gluten is tough for me). Diet is key to getting well, just as much as the hormone is! You need to support your health with really good nutrition.

some interesting links from a blogger. Check out the comments sometimes fellow thyroid sufferers offer some good info/personal stories as well. oil-for-thyroid-health-lard-for-tremors/ oy-for-thyroid-health/ on-news-roundup-coconut-oil-lowers-cholestero l-improves-thyroid-function/ adrenal-recovery/ -and-iodine/ rstanding-the-keys-to-health/ a good one- read the comments there seems to be a hashi lady who writes a lot of info and responses /10-foods-that-affect-thyroid-health-for.html lth/ (she had graves disease) -10-reasons-to-give-up-grains/

Health & Support Hashimoto's hereditary? Mar 16 2011
16:55 (UTC)

It can be, my Grandma had thyroid disease, and eventually cancer. I believe she had Graves disease. As far as I can tell, no one else in my family has thyroid disorders though.

I've been told by many doctors/fellow hashimotos sufferers that avoiding gluten is a must. You can look into this if you like, its a big dietary shift.

Foods Should I avoid soymilk as my mom have a thyroid condition? Mar 14 2011
16:15 (UTC)

you shouldnt drink soymilk period- its been promoted as a health food by the soy industry for years, buts its not healthy at all. I'm a former soy milk drinker who also has family thyroid issues and eventually developed hashimotos after a period of consuming lots of soy (at 15 years old which is very young to develop hashimotos).

People who are lactose intolerant often cannot consume milk because the enzymes that help digest lactose in the milk have been destroyed by pasteurization. But thats a whole other issue. You can look up raw milk- Raw milk is incredibly healthy, and can be very safe, but only if you source it from a really good small farm. chive/2011/03/14/is-the-hidden-soy-in-your-fo ods-contributing-to-illness.aspx chive/2010/09/18/soy-can-damage-your-health.a spx

Foods dannon light and fit 110 cal/cup yogurt! how much sugar??? Mar 14 2011
16:04 (UTC)

Very good point, but there are several options for diabetics like Stevia before one has to turn to artificial sweeteners. It has no negative side effects, its an herb.

The issue is, stevia is not widely used in the processed foods like the artificial sweeteners are. So when it comes to processed yogurts and sugar free this and that in the supermarket, you're stuck with artificial sweeteners. Plus the food companies that produce these sweeteners have a lot of influence in the govt regulations (look at the companies who help fund the ADA), and lots of marketing $$$ and are constantly promoting these products as a healthy option for diabetics, the alternative to sugar. There aren't a lot of people/organizations/doctors/companies spending the same amount of marketing $$$ getting the truth out there about the dangers of these sweeteners, but the truth is out there and readily available. I think if the true scope of the health impacts of these sweeteners was regularly put out there for people to view the use of these products would decline.  

Yogurt has less lactose in general because the fermentation process that results in yogurt (from the original milk that has been warmed and had cultures added from another batch of yogurt) the lactose gets eaten up by the bacteria. Its really rather easy to make at home.

Commercial yogurt producers no doubt have manipulated this process, who knows what kind of cultures they use, they probably manufactured some scientific batch of culture that produces yogurt the fastest. They might not even fully ferment the yogurt in order to speed up the process and they just add thickeners to make up the difference. Its never going to be high quality optimally nutritious yogurt when its produced in that manner. The same goes for any processed foods.

Health & Support Hyper and Hypothyroidism Mar 10 2011
23:29 (UTC)

First of all, a lot of Endos are rather old fashioned and behind the times about what is and what is not Hypo based on lab readings. I cannot stress this enough, I learned this the hard way. If you stick with a backward doctor, your treatment and health will be suboptimal. This is not good for long term health, thyroid conditions wreak havoc on the body.

A good website about this (its a little aggressive but full of good info).

If he is basing his his prognosis of you thyroids functioning  based on TSH and T4 alone, hes behind the times, and you need to see someone else. Tsh is not the most important test to determine thyroid function- Free t4 and free t3 are. Research doctors in your area and pick one who knows the importance of free t3 and free t4. Also, a doctor who knows about armour thyroid would be a good fit. - im giving this link as an example of a sort of doctor you want to look for, I swear im not promoting this person but its the sort of doctor I would go to if I could, I picked this practice out as the doctor I will go to when I have enough money to afford care (I'm uninsured and between jobs right now)- . There is more at play then simply taking a t4 hormone, your thyroid/body is so screwed up sometimes it cant even make the conversion of t4 into t3 etc etc etc.

As far as finding a perfect dose, its an ongoing process. Initially it requires a lot of testing until you get the right dose, and you may have to tweak based on your symptoms. You have to get the right doctor who will read your labs properly and help you get the right dose first though. Getting on the right medication is important. I hate synthetic hormone, it worked horribly for me and I will never take it again. Some people it works fine for. Armour is natural, cheap (1 month supply cost my 17$ w/ no insurance), and effective as any of the synthetics. It was the gold standard back before synthetics, Synthetics are more popular and more profitable (I believe these factors go hand in hand).  I believe its much easier on the body to take natural hormone, I've been to doctors who've told me this too, and explained the difference (sadly this was a while ago and I can't recall exactly why the explained it, I should have took notes!), he warned me about taking synthetic t3 especially. I have never had the side effect issues on armour that I did on synthetics. 

I have this condition as well, and it sucks butt. Its an autoimmune condition not simply hypothyroidism as you prob already know, its way more serious. Your thyroid is most likely enflamed and swollen because your body is confused/reacting to something and producing antibodies to destroy it, a war is going on with your thyroid, and its progressively being damaged. I've been to endless conferences and something I've heard constantly linked to Hashimotos is GLUTEN INTOLERANCE, by a ton of people including doctors/people with hashimotos. One nutritionist talked about hashimotos- that it ran in her family (thyroid conditions definitely can be a genetic issue- my grandma had serious thyroid problems- graves and thyroid cancer) her mother and her sister had it- she consciously avoid gluten and she never developed hashimotos. Just something to consider, my Aunt happens to be celiac and I'm pretty sure my mom has gluten issues too. I stopped eating gluten a month ago and I plan to stop for good. When you have an autoimmune condition, you have to take really good care of your health and eat well because your body is being compromised. You are also at risk of developing other autoimmune conditions. 

Health & Support wanting to lose 5lb Mar 10 2011
22:50 (UTC)

I went through this feeling a while ago when trying to overcome my eating issues. I gained a bunch of weight at first, and felt disgusting and lumpy and ashamed etc. I stuck with what I was doing any it was the better decision I've made about recovering from eating issues.

I would not advise attempting to lose weight, because that requires dieting and obsessive behavior that does not spell eating disorder recovery at all.

Do you really think losing weight is good for your recovery? Losing weight is giving in to your disordered thinking by basically admitting to yourself "you are disgusting" and you have to lose weight just to feel comfortable and good enough etc. Its not even about gaining or losing 5 pounds, the 5 pounds means you ate more big damn deal. The problem is your mental/emotional reaction, thats the eating disorder issue. Stop rationalizing that losing weight will make you more 'comfortable' and more likely to 'recover', it wont. Get over it, if you cant get over being 5 pounds heavier it will be hard to ever recover.

What does help recovery is learning to accept yourself at any weight, learning to not be as bothered by weight gain. Thats recovery. I'm not even going to say 'its only 5 pounds its not that much, you're probably still at a good weight'. Saying that is crap, you just have to learn to accept yourself, lumps and all. Seriously, the removal of lumps doesn't make life any better. Its your mindset that does.

And if you're grouchy upset and being mean because you've gained weight, you're obviously engaging in obsessive behavior about your weight and allowing it to take over your life. Thats got to stop. Chill out, relax. Stop looking in mirrors and analyzing every bit of yourself you think is getting fatter. Stop trying on clothes that don't fit you as well and then hating yourself. What the hell is the point of that behavior? It only reinforces disorder thinking.

Weight Loss The Curse of the Thighs Mar 10 2011
22:32 (UTC)

I have similar issues, it used to bother me ALOT. I used to hate my thighs/legs so much that i'd only wear loose pants! I'd look in the mirror and hate them and wish that I had those lovely lithe skinny jean type legs (its hard not to be envious at times, but we're not all born with great legs). I basically wasted years of my life resenting a part of my body I couldn't change, disliking myself etc. Moving on from this was the best feeling ever, its possible to feel neutral about such things, it takes time and self acceptance. 

At this point I've realized my legs aren't that bad but they don't look good in skinny jeans and other jeans of a certain cut. I'd say my legs are a size or 2 bigger then my torso/bum sometimes more in certain brands, and they don't have the greatest shape to them. I try on a lot of jeans until I find ones that fit well and look good, and sometimes I really do look great in jeans. Sometimes you've got to get stuff tailored in the bum area. Its all about finding the right jeans! Hating your legs isn't going to make them any more proportional. Most jeans are designed for women with slender legs/more proportional, its unfair for us pear shaped ladies but its the reality. If you shop in the teeny bopper stores (AE, HM, etc) you're going to come upon jeans that don't fit right and don't flatter your body. Go to other stores for jeans, say the gap or something (even the Gap has mostly jeans cut for skinny legs though, I wish i knew a store to recommend I dont shop much )

There is not much you can do when you're a pear shape w/ considerably larger legs other then lose as much weight as possible to get skinny legs, at the expense of your upper body/sanity. I tried it for a while and was really skinny for my frame and my legs were just right, but I couldn't sustain it. Its hard to maintain an abnormally low weight And thats no fun at all. If you're at your ideal weight and your legs are still big, idk its up to you what to do- You can try some specific exercises like pilates- I do callanetics sometimes but I haven't noticed a huge difference from it (as much as the dvd promises to give me big results). Its genetics, you can't really change the size of you muscles and  the way they're shaped. 

Health & Support My Dad has a high blood pressure. =[ Mar 09 2011
23:46 (UTC)

Definitely eliminate the table salt! As in sodium chloride. Go out and get some good celtic sea salt- or sea salt that is coarse (not finely ground white phony sea salt) and not white- greyish-pinkish. The real deal. He should salt his food with that. It will probably be found in a local health food store. This alone will help. Do not cook with table salt or any salt for that matter, or at least reduce salt in cooking, salt to taste. Do not try to eliminate salt, use good quality healthy sea salt.

Sadly, a reduction in processed foods is what probably needs to be done. There is just so much sodium chloride in processed foods.

Here is an article by a great doctor I heard speak at a conference in November- he offers an alternative view. He treats heart disease patients very successfully with diet and drugs (but not the typical drugs doctors prescribe). ood-pressure/