I've been a fat girl all my life. Chubby knees, pudgy elbows, fat shoulders. You name the spot, you can pinch an inch...or two...or three...but I digress.
Now, I'm losing weight. Even though I'm not quite as small as I was, let's say, six years ago, I'm losing it in a different order than I gained it. That's resulting in an interesting phenomenon for me...unfamiliar body parts.
I woke up the other morning, rubbed my shoulder, and my hand hit something hard and uncomfortable. My collar bone. Jutting out. That's certainly a new sensation. I spent the rest of the day rubbing my newfound collarbone. It was...interesting.
The same thing has occurred with my cheek and jaw bones recently. I really had no idea I even possessed cheek or jaw bones, much less ones that could be visible or touchable through my skin. An odd sensation for me.
But the weirdest moment so far came tonight, when I was sitting on the couch in a knee length skirt, with my leg bent, and reached down to rub my knee...I felt my entire kneecap....and it was just someone else's knee entirely. I couldn't recognize the structure at all, period. My knee is completely unfamiliar to me. It's so. Incredibly. Weird.
So has anyone else gone through this, or am I losing my mind here?
Defined clavicle/ shoulders
That's it right there. I also like large noses on men and expressive brows. However, if someone doesn't have a defined clavicle or shoulders. I noticed the lack of it. It sorta bothers me. The same with teeth.
You know that Unfamiliar feeling how it's sorta a sensation to touch. Feel. That's what makes it so attractive. Not just on yourself, making you feel sexy. But, other your lover/partner.
This isn't to say that anorexic bony people are attractive. That's just sick. But, being able to see definition of a healthy structure is attractive. Not perfection like sculptures of Roman Gods. But, healthy definition.
Here's one for ya -- I found what I thought was a "lump" under my arm. Told all my family to prepare for the worst... Went to see the doc... She rubbed around and said, "That?"
I gulped..."Yep...that's it doc...."
She said, "That's a muscle!"
LOL :) I had been working out for a while but never realized I had a muscle there :)
I've noticed my spine. strange yes, but I can see it slightly now. I can feel my coccyx aka tailbone at times. I can see my ribs, thats the first place I noticed I was losing weight. And I have cheekbones sometimes depending if the light is right! Oh yes, and my hip bones. These are all new for me!
If you are crazy then I'm right there with you! I've always been overweight so as the weight comes off I am fascinated with all the changes. The collar bone is a big change for me as well.
Once... and only once, I made it to the small person I'm supposed to be =)
I understand completely! It was fascinating! I was a STRANGER to MYSELF! lol
It was totally unexpected :-) The only problem, though... I had trouble sleeping!
Those hip bones were NOT happy! They missed the 'padding' they'd ALWAYS had, and hurt when I tried to sleep on my side! ;-)
I'll be glad to find that little person again, tho'... hip bone troubles or not =)
Oh! I'd forgotten that! lol! It was a problem for me, too!
BTW- nursemeow! I looked at your pictures...WOW! You're a real inspiration!
Wish I could look that nice! At 45, that won't happen! lol! =)